Tuesday, October 15, 2013

I am starting this blog in honor of my daughter.  I have never done a blog before so I'm not quite sure how to do it but, here is my attempt.  My 24 year old Breana, we called her Breezy, was a very intelligent child.  She graduated at the top of her class with a 5.0 GPA.  She took college courses in high school and received more credit for the classes.  When Breezy graduated from high school she was working for two prominent attorneys and decided she wanted to move out to start her adult live.  So at 19 years old she got her first apartment and was doing very well.  Soon after she moved out she was introduced to drugs and very quickly became addicted to heroin.  At first she was smoking it but it didn't take long for her to move to injecting it.  She lost her home, her job, and her family.  We let her move back home many times but she would start using again. We were trying to do tough love thinking that if she hit rock bottom she would quit.  She lived in her vehicle and when she was pulled over for expired tags and her car was impounded she lived on the streets.  She became very good at pan handling.  She was an absolutely beautiful young woman and it wasn't hard for her to get the money she needed for her next high.  She also pawned everything she owned and then started stealing to have things to pawn.  I bailed her out so many times.  Paid off her pawned items to get them back, let her come back home and she would start stealing from us.  Again she would get kicked out.  After 6 long years Breezy was arrested and spend time in jail.  Part of her release included intensive outpatient therapy and rehab. She completed these programs and was finally in recovery.  In October 2012, we allowed her to move back home.  She enrolled in school and was pulling off a 4.0 GPA.  We were drug testing her every week, no one was allowed to know where she lived and we monitored her activity very closely.  March 14th I took Breezy to court.  She received some very bad news about her daughter and was told that she would have to pay child support.  She was devastated and didn't know how she was going to pay since she wasn't working and was focusing on school.  When we got home she said she was going to take a nap and when she got up she would clean her room.  I thought nothing of this as she napped regularly.  A few hours later her alarm clock went off and she wasn't turning it off.  I went into her room and found her lying next to her bed.  She was actually sitting on her knees and folded over.  I shook her to wake her up but she didn't respond.  I picked her up to find her with blue lips and no heart beat.  In her hand was the syringe she had used to shoot up for the very last time.  She was DEAD!  This was the worst day of my life.  I am doing this blog because if I could change the live of just one person her death wouldn't be in vain for me.  I am here for anyone fighting this addiction. 

3 comments:

  1. I'm sure this took a lot to write Michelle. God bless you for doing it! I feel like I was just talking to Breezy yesterday, it just doesn't seem real that she is gone. I pray for your family every night. I remember in high school how smart Breana was and how envious I was of her intelligence and her beauty and how proud I was to call her a friend. I lost my mother to heroin addiction, it's a nasty thing :( I wish no drugs like that existed :( I am so sorry for your loss Michelle. God bless you and the whole Hamby family <3

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  2. Breezy was and isAmazing she lives on through you and her child...You brought Me & My family to tears Aunt Michelle for a first time blogger it's Terrific...I will be sharing and reaching out to those who need it I Hope..know I think of all of you everyday & I mean all..I Lovvvveee this & I Lovvvveee Yooou So for being you n sharing this..you've proven how incredibly brave you are by even doing this I admire You so much..All My Love , Yours Valori Elaine

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  3. Good morning everyone. I would like to start by saying Amanda Martin, thank you so much for commenting. I'm so sorry for the loss of your mother. Heroin is a terrible demon. I appreciate your prayers. I truly believe prayers are what are getting us through this terrible ordeal. Valori Donaldson, thank you so much for the beautiful compliments. Your love and support are greatly appreciated.
    Heroin knows no boundaries. It used to be the junkie in the alley with the track marks up and down their arms. That was thanks to Nancy Regan and the Just Say No campaign. Heroin addicts today are a functioning part of society. More and more addicts are what are called a "functioning addict". People that came from loving homes with very loving parents. People of all ages, races and economic backgrounds...Stay at home moms that take their children to school and run a household, attorneys, doctors, even your next door neighbor.
    Again I am doing this blog in honor of Breezy. I want to help addicts. Help find them rehabs. Introduce them to support groups and just be here for them.
    If you know someone that needs help, please send them my way. I am very non-judgemental and will make no assumptions. Since the death of my daughter I have researched heroin, joined many support groups myself, and became educated on what to do and say to an addict. Although I did this research too late to help my daughter, I have it now to help someone else.

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